lacking motivation

menu for today:

1 ww bagel (2)
1 egg (2)
1 Source yogurt (1)
1 cup frozen strawberries (0)
1/4 cup silk light (0.5)
1 cup coffee

1 apple (1)
1 Source yogurt (1)
1/4 cup skim milk (0.5)
1 large coffee

pita pit salad with:
6 falafel ball-things (3)
3 tbsp. hummus (1.5)
lots of veggies (0)

1 scoop whey protein powder (2)
1/2 cup silk light (0.5)
1 cup frozen strawberries (1)
1 Source yogurt (1)

1/3 cup uncooked oatmeal (1.5)
1/2 tbsp. all natural peanut butter (1)

as of right now, dinner has yet to determined. i went grocery shopping today, so i have lots of options. i'm thinking of making white fish, with sweet potato fries, and a salad. it's my favorite dinner!

my fitness goal for the day is to go to the gym in my building and run on the treadmill for 30 minutes. i have very little motivation right now, having just come off of 3 very stressful days at school (handed in my final assignment this morning at 8 - phew!). not surprisingly, i haven't been sleeping much lately, which has made it hard to stay within my daily points (i ran out of flex points mid-way through a burrito early saturday morning). when i'm stressed and tired, all i want to do is eat and eat and eat some more. however, i've resisted the urge and have been on track since sunday. way to go me! now all i have to do is get one more workout in this week and i will have accomplished almost all of my weekly goals. i can't wait for my flex points to reset tomorrow.

tomorrow is valentines day and my two-year anniversary with my boyfriend. yeah, it's pretty corny that we started dating on v-day, but we did, so i'm going to celebrate the shit out of it (read: get wasted with my friends). i wish i could go back to the city to see him, but i can't because i'm volunteering all day friday and have to be on campus by 9:00 am. oh well! we had such a wonderful weekend together. i miss him so much. i really am so lucky to have such a great guy in my life.

lately i've been feeling pretty antsy at school, and i think it's been coming out in my eating. i'm nervous to graduate, yet so excited at the same time. i feel as though my mixed emotions are rearing their ugly heads in the form of late night binges (like that burrito at 2 am on saturday... yeah, like i really stopped eating it when i ran out of flex points). i need to find another way to handle my emotions. eating doesn't help anything. but even though i know this, sometimes i just can't seem to stop myself.