bonne voyage!!

lately my posts have been pretty negative, so my goal for today's post is to keep it positive. and i don't think it'll be hard to do because.... drumroll please... i'm going to europe tomorrow!! saweet!!

instead of doing the typical, "oh i'm in 4th year, let's go to an all inclusive resort in mexico and drink pina coladas and hook up with randoms/ex-boyfriends/friends/etc." for 7 days, my roomie, our good friend ash, and myself are heading over the pond to europe. we're flying to the uk tomorrow night, and then to paris on saturday. we plan on spending a few days in paris, and then training to amsterdam and possibly berlin. i've never been to paris, so on a scale of 1 to 10 for excitement, i'm pushing a 9.

in all of the stress and craziness that has been the past few weeks, i completely forgot about our trip. but the first thing that came to me this morning was a vision of my friends and i standing infront of the eiffel tower, with red berrets and dark lipstick, chain smoking, and drinking wine. god, sometimes i am just sooo "adult". i'll be sure to posts pics when i get back.

ok, so this next part is going to be a bit tricky, since i've promised to be positive in this post and when it comes to this issue, it can be incredibly hard for me to do so at times. i'm just going to bite the bullet and say it: today was weigh in, and i gained 2.3 pounds. i'm not going to scream, or curse, or pinch my belly to see if the fat is "really there". i'm going to accept it, move on, and continue making positive changes. i know why the scale went up this week: my emotions were out of sorts, and i ate to try to calm them. obviously, and as i should know by now, this didn't work. but that's a-ok, because today i'm miss. cheery and i refuse to: (1) feel guilty, (2) feel bad about myselfk, (3) overeat in an attempt to feel "better", and (4) look into the mirror and think about what i would look like if only i was a little thinner. no, not today.

here's what i've had to eat so far today:
1/2 cup oatmeal (2.5)
1/2 tbsp. peanut butter (1)
1 small orange (0.5)
1 coffee with 1/4 cup skim milk (0.5)

1/2 cup plain yogurt (1)
1 cup frozen whole strawberries (0)
2 slices ww bread (1)
1/2 tbsp. light cream cheese (0.5)
1 tbsp. blue menu jam (0)

1 cup gardenay squash soup (1.5)
1 ww wrap (1)
1/2 can tuna in water (1.5)
1/2 tbsp. light mayo (0.5)

1/2 cup Nature's Path flakes (0.5)
1/4 cup GoLean Crunch (1)
1/2 cup Almond Breeze (0.5)
1/4 cup frozen blueberries (0)

Dinner is tbd. going back home to toronto tonight to see the bf before i leave. i'm pretty excited. he's been such a great support during the past few days.